I don't think I'm unlike many women who walk through their busy lives, going about the daily business and wake up one day wondering . . . does this world intend more for me? My thirties have been difficult years, but I believe these are my teaching years, preparing me to come into my best self. It seems that I've spent endless hours in my own mind searching for the person that I'm meant to be. For years now, I've longed to live a more creative daily experience. Now is the time to be intentional about putting that into motion, and being the catalyst for my own change.
On July 1st, my beloved mother suffered an abdominal aortic aneurysm rupture. In a moment, life changed. She beat all the odds, and survived after a med-flight, surgery, and multiple days in intensive care. This beautiful woman, who I naively believed like a child would always be there, was nearly lost. Reality strikes again! As she is now recovering, we've had many conversations about things yet to accomplish. She's not done yet, and I know that I need to get moving too. It's time to become the person I want to be, instead of just wanting that to be true. I have a daughter of my own, and want to give her my best self, she deserves nothing less. My sister has been saying recently, you need to put your own oxygen mask on first. Great advice.
If my father is the body; the mechanics, the muscle, the frame, drive, the practical needs, ambition, life moving forward with the ground under my sturdy feet . . .
Then my mother must surely be the soul. The air in my lungs, the blood, the beat of my heart. Inspiration, music, prose. She is the warmth of the sun. She is the fresh smell of the earth. She is the light, the laughter, and the truth. She is the magnificent roar of angel wings in my ear. She is the golden thread of love that binds all things, knows all things, and sweetens my past, present, and future.
I spent the day yesterday celebrating my 10 year wedding anniversary at Sundara Spa. This is one of my favorite destinations, and always find a day of relaxation and meditation tremendously healing. I am fortunate to be married to a man who can appreciate this as well. I picked up a copy of Artful Blogging to read while lounging, and was inspired by the artist who have already taken this leap of art faith. I thought that this might be a good forum for me too, documenting the journey I'm on and keep me moving in the right direction. Fasten your seat belts, engines are now engaged . . .
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